today there was lots and lots of heavy, fat rain. i like fat rain. it's not that nice to be caught outside in, but it's almost like if it's gonna rain, it may as well make a big deal of it.
saw a new christina aguilera song/video this morning. and i was very impressed for a change!! great song, a tad cheesy but very bearable. makes use of her huge voice range. and - get this - she was wearing something that wasn't that short, didn't show her belly, and wasn't overly revealing!!! she's not even in heels. it's amazing. and it's all in black&white too, which always wins points for me. generally it's a really plain clip, but i really liked it. except maybe the end, where she does a bit of a 'kylie' and lies around on this luminous table thing. i love video clips. i enjoy watching them whether i like them or not, even if i end up tearing them apart with harsh criticism. they're the only thing i'll watch pretty regularly on tv. and i'll more likely associate the song with 'the clip' than the other way around (as in, "tra la la" - "oh! that's that song where the guy runs down the street and turns into a palm tree"). and it really bugs me when i haven't seen a clip to a song i like. or any song that catches my interest, good or bad. wouldn't it be fun to make video clips. well maybe not to full-on make them, but at least to come up with the ideas for them and have somebody else do all the technical shabang.
i don't like money. it just gets in the way of everything else. when dreaming up dreams or making rough plans, the thought of money is never in the initial stages. it's just that state of pure ideal with no complications or consequences. but then when practicality eventually comes into it, money is like a big muddy footprint on new carpet, and the dreams can get tarnished. not destroyed, but maybe a few more steps away from being attainable. was talking to a good friend the other day about study options, and his advice was to pinpoint what it is you think about doing when you're not worried about silly things like money, and to maybe try and pursue that. now that approach obviously appeals to me, but it just seems to end up going in circles. dream, decide, can't afford. dream, decide, can't afford. there's 2 or 3 areas i'd really really really love to study. but i don't know how. are doors shutting or am i just looking at the wrong ones?? or is that the same thing? hmmm.
on a more postive note, 'dinotopia' by james gurney is one of the best books ever. i got it when i was much younger and only just got it out to read it again. it's amazing. and the pictures! oh the pictures. the whole idea of an unknown land existing like that is just so cool. another place with it's own language and writing and practices and customs and history and species and conduct and attitude and....dinosaurs. i remember wanting so badly for it all to be real. it was real in my mind at least, if not anywhere else. heck maybe it still is - i loved it that much. that's the kind of thing that i don't mind beleiving in, coz it doesn't really matter if i'm right or not. now ofcourse dinotopia is a story, but i think it's the same priniciples with aliens, myths, atlantis, yetis, crop circles...all that stuff that people can never agree on (then again, can we agree on anything). i know a lot of people would laugh at those type of things, and a lot of them are probably proved to be non-existent or easily explained. but although maybe it's childish, i like to beleive in a lot of it. not because it will explain anything for me, or because i think it will really change anything. but why not. maybe god had a little fun and kept more things hidden than we realise. maybe not, who knows. but the cool thing is, like i said, is that as far as i'm concerned, it doesn't really matter to us either way. maybe that's a very naive thing to say. but that's how i see it. but just because i might think some of these things are real or at least quite possible, doesn't mean i'd want to go and prove it. heck no. that wouldn't be cricket. that would be denying a secret it's secretive-ness. and besides, if it's been hidden or unexplained for this long then chances are it would remain so. basically, i think it's a wonderful thing that humans don't know everything about their 'hood. and i think it should stay that way, and if silly people like me want to beleive in the loch ness monster, then leave us in peace.
well, apart from the enthralling introduction about the weather, that was 3 reasonably chunky points (well, maybe not 'points'...just thoughts...or observations...not 'points'). if they all started with the same letter and included the words "salvation", "the gospel" and "jesus", then i'd have myself a sermon.
"i don't see you when leaves are falling...you know better times are calling...you'll be back for spring"