today has been so sleepy. took the day off work as i was feeling pretty terrible this morning, and have literally been snoozing on and off since 7am. i'm praying it's not the return of glandular fever. not really in the mood.
annoying: wanting to study something, but getting scared because i don't know how to do that thing, which is silly because that's the whole point of studying it. grrr.
'overthrow me, and bend your force, to break, blow, burn and make me new...but i am betrothed unto your enemy - divorce me, untie or break that knot again, take me to you, imprison me...for i, unless you enthrall me, never shall be free' - from a poem on the wall in dad's study. i like being in dad's study. it's a beautiful blend of familiarity with the surroundings (various photos, furniture, model planes, leunig and far side cartoons etc) and of infinite potential, that i think comes from all the books. so many words, ideas, advice, wisdom, prayers, essays, meditations, commentaries, reflections, challenges...all these tools that can God can use to change people. i always get inspired in here. and there's been more than a few theological discussions in here too, with dad. i'm usually left feeling both small and brave. small because there's so much i don't understand, and a lot i never will. but brave because in realising just how huge, complex, and incredible God is, knowing that he's looking after me is so inspiring. a friend made a comment the other day about how church leaders are always getting excited about new books, so they go and buy them, read a couple of chapters but never get around to finishing them, which is why pastors always have enormous amounts of intelligent looking books in their offices. i just asked my dad if that's true. he grinned.
"step outside the life you know...make a choice or leave me here...hang on to what we have made...you'll only find me waiting for you" - heard that a while ago
annoying: wanting to study something, but getting scared because i don't know how to do that thing, which is silly because that's the whole point of studying it. grrr.
'overthrow me, and bend your force, to break, blow, burn and make me new...but i am betrothed unto your enemy - divorce me, untie or break that knot again, take me to you, imprison me...for i, unless you enthrall me, never shall be free' - from a poem on the wall in dad's study. i like being in dad's study. it's a beautiful blend of familiarity with the surroundings (various photos, furniture, model planes, leunig and far side cartoons etc) and of infinite potential, that i think comes from all the books. so many words, ideas, advice, wisdom, prayers, essays, meditations, commentaries, reflections, challenges...all these tools that can God can use to change people. i always get inspired in here. and there's been more than a few theological discussions in here too, with dad. i'm usually left feeling both small and brave. small because there's so much i don't understand, and a lot i never will. but brave because in realising just how huge, complex, and incredible God is, knowing that he's looking after me is so inspiring. a friend made a comment the other day about how church leaders are always getting excited about new books, so they go and buy them, read a couple of chapters but never get around to finishing them, which is why pastors always have enormous amounts of intelligent looking books in their offices. i just asked my dad if that's true. he grinned.
"step outside the life you know...make a choice or leave me here...hang on to what we have made...you'll only find me waiting for you" - heard that a while ago